The In Between or T(X+Y)=Z or Terrible Analogies.

Its like the top of the parabola: When you toss up an apple and it hovers in mid air, waiting for gravity to act upon it.

It's when summer is over, but fall hasn't began yet. When the leaves are on the trees and there are still peaches at the market, but the brisk mornings and rainy afternoons have got you wondering when you'll see the first frost.

Its when you wade in Rattlesnake Creek on a warm afternoon. You walk in confidently and your feet don't register the water's icy temperature until you're too far across to make it out quickly. And by the time you get back to shore, your enjoying the feel of the cold water flowing against your ankles.

It's the few seconds silence between songs on your play list. Waiting patiently, to hear what comes next so you can decide if its worth listening to or not.

Waiting, patiently... or maybe anxiously, to know what your next step is. To know whether to give it time and love or to let it go and explore the other destinations. Unfortunately, life isn't like my "On-the-go 4" playlist and the time in between songs does not equate to The In Between in life.
I don't know if the time between summer and fall is going to be 4 seconds or 2 weeks. I don't know how far I will walk across the creek before my feet start to feel cold. I'm sure I can mathematically figure how long the apple hovers in mid air... but thats not where I'm going with this.

The problem with all of these analogies is this: We know the final result. We know the apple WILL come down, We know there WILL be a fall, my feet WILL be cold and a song WILL come on. Sticking with the mathematical theme here, The In Between in life doesn't give you an out come; it just gives you the variables and you have to wait for the equals sign. Like this: T(X+Y)=Z Where T= time, X= me Y= whatever event I'm experiencing and Z= Yes or No. Pursue it or Not.

I don't know if I've every told you this but I hate waiting for something to happen. I feel like I'm wasting time. I focus far too hard on the end result to be able to enjoy the time it takes to get there. My dad always says (I can hear him now) "its not about the destination, its about the journey." Yeah, I know Dad. I know.

I Just don't know how to enjoy the ride until I know where we're going. Is that bad?